Wednesday, 18 July 2012

I peed on a stick today

I'm still here. I've been searching for my blogger mojo for quite some time but she's been MIA. That, and I just don't seem to have any time to myself anymore. Not complaining though. I'm accompanied (stalked and followed) by the greatest little guy ever. Seriously. I look at him and I'm overwhelmed with love. You know, like a crashing wave of raging L.O.V.E. It's awesome. Every day is an adventure and I'm so fortunate to get to spend it with my Bubster.

Diver Dude is fine. As in completely fine. As in normal-size-heart-beating-at-a-steady-rythm fine. After getting under the proper care of an amazing cardiologist and on the right meds, his heart seems to have "healed" itself. Doc thinks it was all caused by a virus! A stinkin' virus!!

Alright, alright, get to the stick-peeing already!
So, my blogger mojo is not the only thing that's been MIA. Ms Bloody Monster has also gone AWOL since a brief return i April. Again, not complaining! I'm on the mini-pill and still breast feeding up to four times a day (woah, if I'd told my younger self this she would've gasped :) and Dr. Google told me no, or irregular, periods is to be expected... But then I had this nagging voice whispering (in a high pitch, annoying kind of way) in my ear : -Lightning could strike twice! Stranger things have happened! You should pee on something! Do it! POAS!! DO IT!
So I did.
And it was negative.
And I was fine. Almost relieved.
We won't be trying for a sibling for Max. But for a split second while the dye was passing that magic window on the stick I felt a tiny flutter under my heart.

Peace.


Saturday, 21 January 2012

Chasing my dream

Literally chasing my dream around the house.
A little over a week ago, at ten and a half months, Bubba started walking!
Life is good.
And so very, very busy.

Sunday, 9 October 2011

Greetings from the Pacific Northwest

Woah!

If someone suggested having a baby, moving across the Atlantic, renovating your house, and having your husband go through various cardio treatment in less than six months, I would laugh in their faces and strongly advise against it. It's been... well, it's been interesting. And exhausting.
At least we're all in one location, in one piece, and for now that's not bad. Not bad at all.

We all made it across the world in spite of a heat wave that restricted our pets from flying with us on the plane and an insane amount of bags which Diver Dude couldn't carry an inch. Thank goodness for porters and over priced cargo planes that carry pets.

Our house has all new floors and new molding. It also has no doors and is currently a bathroom short. It's still filled with unpacked boxes.

Bubba is crawling! And I have to follow him around like an undercover agent so he doesn't get into things he shouldn't. Let me tell you, the child can move! He's in a hurry to get anywhere fast and he's starting to pull himself up on whatever gets in his way without worry weather it will fall on him in the process. He leaves the worrying to his Mamma. He'll most likely be walking within a couple of months. I'm looking forward to that with an interesting mix of fear and pride.

Diver Dude has had two cardioversions since we got here and has his first consult for an ablation this month. It's such a relief to have him in the care of a passionate and competent cardiologist.

I have so much more to say about meeting old friends, sleepless nights, the joys of solid food and the impact of medication on your sex life but alas, I have no time.

Thanks to those who stopped by to make sure all's well! I still try to keep up on all your blogs but my commenting currently sucks a big fat one.

Sloppy kisses to all of you!

Friday, 29 July 2011

Aloha!

Tomorrow night around this time we'll be back in the states. I'd lie if I said I was all excited. I am, a little, but also sad to move further away from my family and worried about the trip over. Worried about our pets who we've had to rerout due to severe heat and fork up an arm and a leg to fly (luckily they didn't ask for our first born). Worried about Diver Dude lifting stuff he shouldn't and hurt himself (he's back in afib:(. And worried about Bubba traveling that far. But we'll be ok. I'm sure I'm just a worry-wart. See you back in beautiful Washington state! Aloha!

Wednesday, 6 July 2011

A short post with good news

Just a quick note from a gorgeous, warm Swedish summer evening.
Bubba had a name ceremony last Sunday and it was beautiful. Mini-Man was christened the same day - a double whammy if you will. Promise to post more details later.
Diver Dude had another cardioversion here in da Motherland and is back in sinus rhythm. Fingers crossed it stays that way! Toes crossed too for good measures.
Currently hanging out with Bubba at my parents cabin by the sea while Diver Dude is packing up our house in England for the big move back across the Atlantic. I feel slightly guilty. Slightly.

Having a glass of wine and enjoying the night. Lots of love to all of you.

Monday, 20 June 2011

One week

One week of seeing my man filled with energy.
Of rediscovering that wild twinkle in his eyes.
Of getting reacquainted with the ants in his pants.
Of hearing him giggle like his little boy.
Of having my wonderful, strong husband back.
One week of sinus rhythm.

Yesterday he cleared out the space in the attic.
Did a lot of heavy lifting.
Had a beer and a cigar to celebrate Father's Day.
By the end of the day he was tired. Understandably so.

When he came home from work today he was still tired.
He protested when I brought out the stethoscope.
I listened to his heart anyway.
It's back.
After just one week the damned a-fib is back.
FUCK!!

Tuesday, 14 June 2011

Shock!

Yesterday was the day the doctors shocked Diver Dude's heart.
One time - "CLEAR"- and his heart rhythm was a beautiful consistent beat again. Seeing the slow, constant beating of Diver Dude's heart on the EKG reminded me of the joy we felt the first time we saw the quick flutter of Bubba's little heart almost a year ago. Perfection.
Diver Dude told me this morning that for the first time in a long time he could hear his heart beat when laying on his pillow last night. And that the sound that used to annoy him and keep him from going to sleep now was the most soothing and beautiful thing he ever heard :)

No more of this please!
 sinus rhythm